In reality there will come a time, a day when it will hit you. I have a good while of living in El Salvador. I have been through most of the major hurtles here. I was just enjoying everyday life.
Until I purchased bacon at the local supermarket. It all hit me with the bacon. Funny, right? I have been here a while and never noticed bacon was for sale in the supermarket. I just assumed bacon was one of the things I'd have to live without. There are so many things you will need to let go of... you start to just assume. Don't.
I happened to see bacon when I was shopping and picked it up. It was $2.69 for a standard sized package. Very nice cuts, not too much fat. I purchased it and went home only to make a BLT. Minus the tomato.
This story might seem like it has little significance however it does, I promise. The day will come when you understand.
I sat at the table and the second I took a bite of that BLT, bacon ... which I haven't eaten in over a year... it all came back to me. I remembered sitting in the Waffle house back in my old town in the USA.... looking at the cars pass by. I remembered the easy life and how simple it was to get things done, to make money, to live. It all came back to me with that bacon. So again.... funny? No.
I don't regret my decision to live here. I don't need to leave. I won't leave. I am in denial that I miss the USA. Because I do miss the USA. It doesn't matter who you are, what problems you leave behind or why you are coming here. There will be a day when you miss the USA.
There is one way to deal with it. Accept it. Just take a moment to accept it. Accept that your life is no longer there. Accept that you won't be able to live the life you had, open you doors and embrace what you do have.
Your here in El Salvador for a reason. If your not, you will be soon as you read this.
Always remember to embrace what you have and not what you had. Moving forward is best done by accepting your situation, not forgetting your past. Denial only lasts so long. It does not make you weak to miss somewhere you spent so much of your life, rather that be the USA or another country.